been reading around other ppl blog especially db ppl .. most of u haf been tinking like hw haf i come so far ? hw was i able to endure all these 'shit' ? even if yOou were ta post mi tis ques nw .. i dont even noe hw ta ans u .. why why why ?.. usually onli gals can motivate mi but dere are none in db .. even mygf i was neber so commited .. i doubt any1 haf saw tis serious look of mine before .. even if tis was a aim in my life ta haf a positive attitude .. i didnt haf ta work sho hard rite ! .. running like dunno hw many fucking km which was like extra of wat i nid ta do ?.. de gym like my house nw and putting my best in training ! maybe its de wonder of tis sport or it isnt .. do any1 haf answer for tis tell mi ?.. though i onli been in db for like 3 month .. u ask mi ta leave nw .. i tink i wouldnt be able ta take it ! why why !! if db realli work miracle .. i suggest all criminals take up tis sport ! .. and every1 tink im a guai kia nia nw .. when i was like smoking toning few months back, though every1 laugh at de small size im in ! bet u all neber see hw hiong i was in de past and a cute and guai kia face ta u all nw .. seriously i don want ta be back into de past ! .. but again is tis wat i want ta achieve .. i realli dunno ! .. or is it yOou i change but i don tink so .. FUCK .. don wanna tink anymore ! since tis is it i should put my best ! NO MORE ABOUT DE PAST BUT DE FUTURE .. I SHOULD BE HUM NW JUS TA STAY OUT OF TROUBLE .. i tink i nid someone ta tok to =/but who can be de one ta understand hw im feeling nw ?
yesterday neber go home cuz sort of celebrate sb bdae den ton at sk house .. even though i was out ta play .. my mind was still tinking bout our db team .. i seriously dunno wat happen yesterday during training ! .. everyone feel sho lost and our 'starts' realli sux .. even 1o strokes of power and hard stroke we realli cant feel de glide .. dont u all agree with mi ?.. its realli in de mindset and mentality whether we want ta do it a nt .. i noe we push ourselves but our boat neber even seem ta glide at de speed we should yesterday .. maybe becuz we dun haf gud pacers yesterday .. sho wat if our boat dun haf ?.. we should still try and coordinate ya and put in all our effort .. i tink its cuz every1 already haf de mentality tat without our pacers we wont be able to make it and so nth went well .. some may feel cuz a few of de gals sit at de front but ppl on shore sae dey were coordinating well .. guys no matter wat de situation make de best out of it .. i did wanted to shout command or ask bout de prob .. but i realli dun haf de courage ta do so .. as i already do nt haf de chance ta row at master .. but if de next training tis happen again .. we should try and find out wat de problem is .. i realli agree tat mentality is very impt as wat zhenghui sae .. wat for u come row row every week and u gain nth .. jus row for fun ?.. if tat realli wat u tink i realli feel tat u should either change it or do sth ta get out of de team .. lets hope for de best next training ..
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
fuck de trip ta zouk la hor !! .. kNn fight fight FIGHT !! .. lim bei peng you cha bo eh tai ji also equal mine hor .. though u all more dua ki den mi nw .. sho wat !! .. lim bei bo sua see who win la hor .. at first i can realli feel de 'humjiness' in mi .. but after tat i can feel myself back ta past again .. but peng you .. if can don care dem la unless dey darn fucked up lo den bua kao settle
and tat fucker .. wa eh my peng you onli tell u nt ta grind my frenz gf gt wrong arh .. nid kp back izzit .. seriously u knn spoil my mood ok ! .. let mi see u again u beta don anyhow kp lo !
aniwae ty for de gal who dance wif mi la .. though i dunno y i shake hand wif u after tat LMAO i noe its seem weird .. if gt fate den hope ta cya again ba ..
don ji siao my bros unless u realli mess wif every1 of us .. sho long neber go club tis kind of things happen .. seriously darn sian !! ..
BROTHER no nid scared ! .. gt anything happen again call mi .. iwill do wat i can .. to all those chee bye kia .. beta don let mi see u again !! .. i don mind ma ta chu settle sia ..
i noe wat i sae its scary .. but tis is de life of mine .. brother = my everything .. aniwae sb happi birthday =))
going ta ZOUK todae le .. sho long neber go clubbing le sia .. even kinda forget de feeling le ! shit man so long no go shop dunno watta wear le la .. nvm jus anyhow ba and 2morrow gt db training and my frenz bdae ! dunno can take de 'tiredness' mah =/
its been a long time since i gone out wif u all le hor .. hahas nvm i wont forget u guys de =)) de days we neber go home , de days we play cant forget it la .. but we noe tat those kind of life cant last de lo .. forget bout tat lets haf fun TONIGHT .. yey tonight !
sb pai seh i 2morrow gt db training but sure will go find u de .. take care and haf fun ya ! remember my bdae too !! =)) i doubt i can fork out anytime for yOou anymore =/ haish realli too busi .. sorie
Sunday, May 27, 2007
im back ta write more =/ .. ty for every1 encouragement .. i noe u all dun want mi ta gif up on tis .. and i WONT .. no matter wat we will always stay as a team .. maybe ah hee haf his reasons or im realli de weakest .. but watever de reason GOONA TRAIN HARD NW !! .. i wont let any1 down including my senior ikhtia .. u row real hard and encourage ppl on de way .. realli admire ur spirit .. if tis was ta bring mi down i tink i neber be able ta become a gud DRAGONBOATER and nt fit ta be one .. maybe i wont joke or smile tat often nw .. but guys lets do our part and make ourselves proud during de national .. NAN CHU LONG ZHOU SHENG LI !! ..
all my grumbling and whining came true .. i was realli nt rowing during de masters .. when ah hee sae u rest todae i realli can feel my heart sink and lost .. even though i may haf expected tat dere is chances of nt rowing .. before tat i still went dere wif de feeling of giving it all out .. too bad i was nt given de oppournity ..
its impossible ta feel nth or nt ta be demoralized like most of u encourage me .. but tink about it .. u all can see hw much effort i put in for de team - all de encouragement , trainings and all those run .. i realli put in my best though dere are times i will be worn out .. i nt trying ta sae hw great i am but de feeling of nt rowing wif ur teammate realli sux ! ..
maybe my strokes is realli nt up to standard or even powerless ta compete .. didnt noe tat all tat i haf train is still nt enough .. gotta do much more from nw on till national .. gotta prove myself worthy ta be in de boat - de boat tat nyjc dragonboater shines ..
aniwae well done j1 and seniors !! .. dere is improvement from de last masters .. but i noe we can still do beta !! .. i realli feel myself having no say nw when typing tis .. haish .. i was nt even given de chance ta row hw can i comment on anything .. i realli dunno hw ta motivate each other again cuz i realli feel completely beaten ! ..
till de day i realli can be strong will be de time i will be back on my feets again .. meanwhile i'll jus train extremely hard and hope yoou guys too !! .. all de best and DUN GIF UP ! ty for all yoou guys who console mi and encourage mi through de way .. without u guys maybe i wont be here anymore .. realli ty de senior and teammates on boat .. one day i will prove to ah hee i can do it !! ..
Friday, May 25, 2007
hMm .. todae attended a gp seminar on - Crime and Punishment .. at first thought it will be darn sian den pon .. but for nw i feel tat its freaking significant ta mi .. A GUY BEING JAILED FOR 27 YEARS AND CANED 47 STORKES OF CANES .. CAN U BELIEVE IT !! ..
his talk is veri meaningful man .. he asked any1 of u here smoke before ? go clubbing ?.. all these reflect about mi and i don haf ta courage ta raise my hand .. SO pathetic =((
neber wanna walk back de path i being through .. its tough getting out hope i neber turn back !! .. imagine tat yoou will lose ur frenz family loved ones after commiting those crimes .. tat guy in de clip lose his galfrenz who being sho long wif him .. sad case =(( cant imagine still gt ppl can laugh la .. but for mi i realli cant .. dere nth funni man !! wait till yoou being through it before den u see its funni a nt ..
PS: those who still cant get out of it tink bout it .. ur loved ones will leave u if u are in jail or get into trouble .. trust mi !! .. don walk into de wrong path others walk before .. LEARN FROM IT !! ..
SOME ACTUAL FACTS : after taking any form of drugs yoou may jus hallucinate and someone realli feel tat he feel nth of his leg and jus chop it off !! .. ur heartbeat could jus beat double of wat urs nw .. if yoou cant take u might jus die right of de spot !! PLS DON DO ANY SILLY THINGS .. HAF AN AIM AND DON LIVE ON UR LIFE WITHOUT ANY MEANING ..
takkaire all !! .. my aim is ta be a successful dragonboater nw and i neber ever wanna lose my loved ones especially yoou =/
Thursday, May 24, 2007
todae i realli see sth tat disgusted mi .. do yOou realli haf ta do tat man =/ i don get it la .. and i don see hw gud tat person is lo .. onli make mi feel sho FUCKED UP ..
went gyming and learn ta improve my strokes .. realli nid ta train real hard nt ta be de weakest !! .. and i will .. S.U.A.T LOL i realli do miss yOou though i dont appear to .. take care <3
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
i finally done my tag board =)) ty ger <3 ok todae rowing was fine .. but i can realli see ppl slacking [maybe dey are worn out by de tough trainings tis few days] tat wat i hope ya pls don act as if u put in ur best
kinda tink bout it .. my life totally change after getting into jc ! i am like being suan-ded every minute or second s now .. actually its ok la .. but nt too often pls LOL iM so nice lo x)) u noe its u lo .. like gt grudge with mi la ..
aniwae master series coming tis sun aww realli hope i get ta row =/ nw to tink of it .. im realli commited ta db la .. neber in my life sho serious bout anything .. maybe tats a gud change =))
guys lets do our best tis coming competition as it will be our first in db and lets make it sth we can be proud of in future .. senior jiayoous too ba *noe u all sure can do it de ! NAN CHU LONG ZHOU SHENG LI !!
realli miss all my frenz too la .. lets mit up soon ya !! ..
trying ta get my frenz links updated asap la .. tag mi when yOou all come ba .. any comments bout my blog tell mi also ya ..
hMm .. i long deleted my blog before and its been sho long since i last blog .. feel sho strange ta blog again .. but its feel great ta share my exciting life wif everyone again =)) *smiles* okies tat a weird starting line .. aNiwae dere been many changes in my life ya .. now yOou see mi maybe u wont even recognise ?.. "shakes head" but having sae all tat .. i noe i haf become a beta person la ya x))
Mi now : 17 soon - o2o69o a typical student in nyjc violence and bad temper = no more cherish him frenz more den before =) always single x) NYJC dragonboater - totally commited ta it kind of a nerd nw ?.. he can neber be de daring guy again =/
okies tat all ffor a start ba .. dont realli noe watta sae le ,, will write more in future =))
PS : de blog nt realli been perfeectly done yet .. hahas [ gif mi more time =/]
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