yey ! came to see my blog and jus wanna post sth ! hahas ! yey few days back gt sth scary happen man ! like a natural disaster ; worse then a terrorist attack : quote from lcm LOL ! de freaking strong wind blew de jellyfish use for ndp out of its place man ! and it carried with it fence ok ! it was scary Zz and i can see a few army bag attached to it also ! hahas and it flew all de way up to nicoll highway man ! hur hur ~ ! i shall show some of de photos some day later ! till den i gt lot of work to do ! MUGGER WOHOO !
i yearn for de touch tat was long gone .. will u be dere ? senseless ! LOST ! is wat i want wat u want ? MISSES
Saturday, July 28, 2007
KEEP HOLDING ON !ty for de advice hahas !
todae back to rowing ! seriously i realli enjoy rowing though i may nt row tat well ! hmm and yesterday haf de meet de parent session ! ok my result realli sux to de core ! dere nth i can console myself of or lie to myself ! i jus gotta face it ! and wat i can do is to mug from nw on ! 2 more months ! goona give in all i can ! so i tink i wont be blogging so often since like so few ppl come liao also ! nth much to sae also ! and if im slacking at my studies pls remind me to work hard ! haish ! high retain rate but i goona pia to pass my promos and also try to do well !
ya its true i haf to face it ! i haf to be realistic i cant be tat optimistic anymore ! wat if i realli haf no choice but to quit ! i dunno ! seriously blurred ! ty for all those who encourage me all this while ! i appreciate it very much seriously ! but one day if i fall i doubt i can climb up myself again ! its realli hard to make our own decision ! many of us are facing this prob ! i also dunno how ! wat if all of us haf to go ! i realli dunno ! please let de passion i used to haf to get me through this phase ! ONCE A teammate ALWAYS a TEAM ~!
i miss yOou ! miss yOou darn dearly ! it melts in my heart
Thursday, July 26, 2007
get it clear - i don like to beCONTROLLED! please don leave me till im on de verge of everything left hanging dere ! with jus 2 option left ! i simply hate it ! i wanna stay as it is nw ! but im losing de thing im holding on in de past ! WHY ? i don wanna be force with jus 1 option left and i hope u guys dont too ! haish ! it is dying ! TRIED to revive it back but it seem so impossible ! so many things are jus pushing me to de other side ! how ? im jus afraid ~
i need freedom ! losing hopepassion! argh ! PLEASE DON LEFT ME WITH NO CHOICE ! im trying my best but i feel tat i cant hold on for long unless its revive !
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
y mus dere be ppl interfering in our life ! y cant we live de way we want ! maybe its true tat i yearn for too much freedom ! but is tat wrong ? todae haf a wat skid on sex thingy but nt much of those but more on bgr .. its jus remind me of all those naggy days ur parents noe when u start dating ! and dey will like hint u eh boy don do tat hor ! LOL u always noe wat dey mean la ! YA so wat i can onli sae hmm be responsible for ur own actions ba ! hahas ! indulge in de happiness but also tink of de consequences ! LOL y am i saying this ok nvm !
but tinking back, it actually feels gud being in love ! provided de love is genuine ! ya true love seem nearly impossible but it definitely feels lovely and heartwarming though its more difficult to reach for ! but no point holding on to one tat u haf to struggle so hard to carry on ! wat for dating tgther if u find faults in tat person and haf to tolerate with it ! hmm should jus appreciate or like wat de other party haf ba ! when faults arises it will jus led to a breakup ! and ya ppl do hate it ! especially gals LOL and i realli believe tat gals do treasure relationship more den guys ! opps ! ok im nt siding with myself hahas
ok too EMO recently in de end saying all these things ! ok nt goona sae anymore !
because of yOou- it brightens up my life every single bit <3
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
seriously EMO-ing nw ! dere nth for anyone to read ! jus ranting we jus simply need to face de realistic world out dere ! its impossible to reverse anything or even change a single bit of it ! its jus tat cruel ! ure weak ure out ! tat simple ! wats all tat about modern or wat crap shit ! its useless ! even de freedom of speech its impossble for us this secular state to promote anything more ! u jus haf to abide by de rules ! nth can be change ! from young u jus gotta study ! mug mug mug ! life seem meaningless but u jus noe u haf to do it ! and all those sterostypes ! i simply hate it ! vulgarities den ppl condemn u ? ok maybe tats de reality ! but i don wish my life to be controlled of ! so wat if ppl condemn me i don give a dam ! maybe this lost of freedom made ppl do so many wrong things ? y cant ppl look at things in a more flexible way and tink in a different manner ! NO no one simply can ! wth is this ! am i living in a controlled world ! i wish to get out of it ! its unbearable !
de higher u go de more restrictions u haf ! impossible to live in a world of ur own ! harsh cruel reality ! i hate it ! ya ppl condemn u ! and once u lose hope in life u tend to sink in further ! all de way till u became useless ! im sure im right ! i seen too much of life around ! it works this way ! i been to de good and bad ! no matter where u are, dere things u jus gotta face ! i jus hope dere will be a saviour who will jus get everyone out of this ! ya as we grow older we want more freedom ! but tink about it ! de more freedom we haf more ppl are jus watching us ! last time u get into fights who give a dam ! de most u jus get scolding or de most slight caning ! nw ppl will jus tarnish u like crazy and u receive even harsher punishment ! so wat for ! grow older = more restrictions ! argh ! F UP world !
if dere a essay do u agree tat as u grow older more things are just restricted and nt within your control ! i tink i will score darn well man ! and my english seem to improve ! LOL !
status : emo-ing and reflecting ! JUS HOPE TAT life would be easier to handle !
Monday, July 23, 2007
suddenly dere so much restrictions ! i felt out of breath ! suddenly cant tink of anything properly nw ! i thought everything would be easi ! but its jus nt true ! nw gotta cope with lot of things as a JC student ! studies db teachers and friends ! things are certainly nt going my way ! ARGH ! i tink i need someone to be dere for me again =/
todae haf a study talk ! requirements : pass 2 h2 and 1 h1 or no water rowing session ! i tink its jus darn hard for me ! am i able to do it ? im nt sure ! my mind in a fluster ! seriously i feel lost ! like wat some sae : wats a dragonboater without rowing with his paddle ! haish ! back to de realistic life , studies is still de most impt for me now =((
db ! ok i noe my rowing sux nw ! i also dunno wat happen ! jus don feel well ! and plus de stress mounting ! i feel tat its hard for me to take it ! but im goona try my best ! no matter how much more it may take me i willingly to do so ! i wanna row beta but everytime im jus so far away ! CMON i believe next rowing session would be beta and i goona prove myself tat !
neglecting my loved ones friends so many ! my life simply seem out of hand ! am i able to regain back my confidence and to excel both in my studies and db ! i hope tat i can but i noe its hard ! no more de cheerful me ; i feel lost ! smiles on me is gone ! i don want to quit db seriously over my dead bodies ! i hope no one force me to ! HAISH ! but my rowing and studies sux ! will i jus be ask to leave ! i don want ! argh ! i don wanna tink anymore ! i noe i jus gotta hang in dere !
Sunday, July 22, 2007
1 word -DEMORALIZED
EMO-ING myself nw ! lucky dere were u guys cheering me up jus nw ! hmm all de jokes it realli brighten up my day ! ty ! i noe i never be able to be on par with u guys ! all de chances gone ! no matter hw much i put in ! its still nt enough
i luv milo peng ! mi lu bing ! wohoo ! nice song man ! de guys are cute too =)) especially sam and nick! dey simply rox man and i goona get their disc soon ! enjoy ! 深夜里 无法习惯没有你 不愿意再走下去 这距离 痛得我不能呼吸 难忘记你的失去 多少眼泪都无所谓我闭上眼睛不能入睡 只希望你给我一些安慰 这些眼泪我无所谓真心的对待最珍贵 我回头想起爱情的甜美永远不后悔 深夜里 无法习惯没有你 不愿意再走下去 这距离 痛得我不能呼吸 难忘记 你的失去 多少眼泪都无所谓我闭上眼睛不能入睡 只希望你给我一些安慰 这些眼泪我无所谓真心的对待最珍贵 我回头想起爱情的甜美永远不后悔 牵领我进入睡梦追随重温过去 我们两梦中相依偎虽是梦幻愿沉醉 多少眼泪都无所谓我闭上眼睛不能入睡 只希望你给我一些安慰 这些眼泪我无所谓真心的对待最珍贵 我回头想起爱情的甜美永远不后悔 this song 泪i tink is quite nice la ! but in de web dont sound tat nice cannot hear their nice bass or wat ! and de song is cut grr ! nvm jus listen ba or i maybe i try find beta de ! its nice aniwae ! i goona change to another song by sam de soon ! tat one is nice also ! so enjoy !
hmm todae dunno y my phone suddenly off den i switch it on again ! my phone gt de phone lock la den its being so long since i last off my phone LOL ! den i kinda forget my pass gRr ! but luckily i still remember yOou ! hahas ! i dont noe if u noe who u are a nt LOL !i tink i still do miss u though its like darn long le ! but onli simply misses ba hahs
so todae went hl house watch SHUTTER tgther ! lol ok even though its been so long since we last watch it in theatre but its still scary la ! i tink tat its de best horror movie ever man ! its great ! though some of u shouted like siao kia ! and after tat *ahem ahem* i shant sae wat we see hahs ..
gud luck to all those running for mizuno wave run 2morrow ! all de best ! yey beat de others ! and hope for a beta sea training 2morrow ! and yes i did study a bit todae ! beta den nth ! LOL ! =)) CMON As .. hahas ! though its still darn far ! i will be a mugger ok ! don look down on me wahahas ! tC all x))
Friday, July 20, 2007
todae was realli a fun and lovely day =)) except for de tiring lessons ! its still u guys who can really cheer me up ! its impossible for me to stay EMO when im with u guys hahas ! especially with all de jokers around ! gym indeed become a second home for us x)) been trying to correct my strokes hope i get over de phobia since de day i drop my paddle =/ and mr lee try sth on me todae tying both hands lock ! ya indeed it will help cuz we realli nid ta stretch forward and bend in order to row more fluidly ! he ask if it benefit if everyone use this method on boat LOL ! but it somehow will feel like blood stop circulating and strain ur muscle like siao hahas ! BUT to achieve our aim everything is worth it !
i want to be more flexible ! grr i can feel my hand darn stiff but i jus cant change man ! sian ! and bao oh hor scandal with zh hor ! LOL now everyone noe liao after i publicise it ! wohoo =)) msg him ! hahas ! and tat elvis presley thing omg realli fucking funni ! i tink nw also darn funni man ! cant stop laughing ! hmm mon no fartlek but study talk ! die liao la me ! tink de most U belong to me cuz other ppl gp win me liao =/ DEAD !
jus one more glance is enough ! stop peeping at me cuz i wont noe wat to do ! give me a hint and i will noe =))
Thursday, July 19, 2007
ok feeling much beta todae =)) so im nt goona be so bad anymore ! but rather EMO-ing ! ok been tinking bout ques ask by others ! which one do u fear more ? 1) failing in all ur subjects and may even retain 2) kena kicked out by db ! for me its sure is option 2 though im nt sure of de main reason yet ! and de ans for me its darn obvious ! is it for u ? im nt saying studies are nt impt but are u pushing enough for db ? hope all of u do ! nth much to sae aniwae ! well done in gym training ! can see everyone pushing real hard and i feel stronger ! wohoo ! yeah and ty tat u wont ask me to quit db to my parents ! this is wat u sae ! don break ur promise ! ya ur rite db is everything to me ! i haf passion for it and also for de teammates ! and i doing all this nt for exco seat or wat pls ! and this is de first time sae tat to me ! so u can see my reaction was like definitely NO ! its for de TEAM ! yeah ok tats all i goona change to a EMO song lol ! its quite nice though de lyrics dont suit me now =)) luckily hahas
Nabei fcuking pissed nw ! de following things i going to sae sure isnt pleasant and i don give a dam ok ! ya true im full of vulagarities ! cant stand argh FCUK off lo ! no one tell me wat to do ! ya im like this don like it also nt my tai ji rite ! and knn ! todae morning wa lan aye ccb u dare suan me like this ! i didnt noe how i tolerate with it and even give u a smile back ! WTF la ! de more i tink i realli want give u a bash right in de face man ! even if im kana kick out of sch i don give a dam ! ya i nearly fought with teacher before and even dey cant tolerate me ! ya so wat u want to do ?
u tink im scared cuz i like fail all my subjects ! eh pls this is my life ok ! dun go one round and come fcuking suan me ! so wat if it realli bad ! and u still dare ask me if im angry ! and i actually said NO wtf am i tinking man ! i hate ppl talking to me in this manner and i seriously will nt give u any respect anymore ! so wat if u are a teacher ! i seriously don give a fcuking dam ! and i don tink ur suan is funni or wat ! it jus turn ppl off and made me feel darn pissed !
and sure go complain to my parents all u want ! ya sae wat fcuking bad results i haf wat fcuking attitude i give ok ! i don give a dam bout tat ! and u bloody hell beta nt suggest me to quit db ! u do tat i realli dunno wat i will do right in front of u ! don fcuking test me ! i can turn darn nasty if u want me ! i will show u no mercy ! don try me ! lim bei siao aye u better hurry off run man ! CCB !
ok next thing ! im nt trying to mean anything or wat ! ya ok i noe u all sure haf fun with me this few months ! ya indeed ui haf change ! but sometimes dere is a limit for everyone ! i can joke most of de time but when im nt feeling gud beta don agitate me ! even u are my frenz or wat i wont give a dam at de point of time ! tats y i did so many wrong things ! i noe its fun suaning me or wat ! tat is fine i mean ya its a team and frenz wat den don want make it so serious ! but dere a limit to everything ! i realli don wanna show de other side of me don force me ! i beginning to feel i cant control anymore ! i still can joke but don push de limit ! i believe dere no way i can change from my old self ! my temper is realli getting worse ! stress is mounting ! FCUK !
darn tired time to sleep ~ !
Monday, July 16, 2007
wohoo ! nw i haf an aim being a SUPERSTAR ! LOL jus jk ! ok jus watch campus superstar ! de fu kuan sing this song ai ai ai actually he sing ok onli lo dunno y gt so high Zz ! shawn sing mu nai yi ok tats nice for sure cant deny and he gt like 25 so fcuking high ahahs ! den our veri own nyjc superstar JAVIN ! he sing gei wo ni de ai nt bad leh actually jus tat his voice like mine veri low ! but hope he go in ! and i gt vote for him ok ! lets wait for de result later ! anyone see this before 1o ! put for javin m5 ! LOL !
gei wo ni de ai rang wo pei zhe ni qu wei lai ~
todae in de morning had fartlek ! goona train up my leg muscle man ! at least after todae i tink i still can run well hahas ! but gt a stupid bad headache after tat and my leg muscle too weak to bring me far =x goona train hard and mug hard too ! i completed chapt 6 of math myself ! wohoo =)) tats gud for a start ! been looking at many clothings online ! aww i so wanna shop ! anyone want shop tell me ! but give me some time to save $$ HAHAS ! and provided ur dressing sense same as mine ! LOL ! yey and i seriously love singing man ! songs simply rox my life ! though i may nt sing darn well but at least i jus enjoy it a lot ! singing whenever i go ! wahahas ! how gud it would be if i can be a singer in future those well-known de la ! LOL ! if im fcuking rich hw i wish i can try all sort of different clothings ! tat will be darn cool x)) if sch don fcuking refrain us from keeping long hair i would wanna haf it man ! i jus don want to be rebellious more ! sec life is enough always tio kan ! since i came into jc i should jus be prepared ba ! sad ! seeing all poly students can haf long and funky hair or even perm provided its long ! aww hw envy !
any1 noe of any gud online shopping links tell me ok ! male de hor ! Zz all i found mostly is gals de ! sian so 2morrow we are ending earlier and my clique wanna go mind cafe i tink but nw i so wish to go kbox ! hahas ! listen to me sing ! wohoo !
gei wo ni de ai shou la zhe shou bu fang kai ~
Saturday, July 14, 2007
todae back to de rowing days ! at de start i realli feel sucky den slowly picking back ! and this is de first time i drop my paddle as in seriously nt slip is drop Zz ! sry man back pack ! hahas ! but after tat still ok le ba =))
ok enough bout rowing ! so finally i studied =)) wohoo ! but seriously nw i noe y i fail sia ! i wanted to do math so many things about gc i dunno how use ! den some concept i don even noe den go take exam liao LOL rite ! Z.z but i started doing chapt 6 de cuz nid ta hand in i tink ! but seriously i nid ans to guide me through hahas !
but studying realli can make one EMO lo ! cuz study till sian liao den ur mind will like be tinking bout other things den u start drifting away to other things except studying ! LOL ! jus a random remark hahs ! nth is realli everlasting ! since we noe dere will be a point tat we will leave each other and maybe even hurt de other ! but y ppl jus don realli care and tink of wat may happen in future ?! hahas cuz its de process or take it de time dey spent tgther tat ppl cherish ba ! i tink so maybe it apply to some ! no matter hw long de time is as long as u make full use of de time tgther ! life would be meaningful too ! true ah ? i also nt sure leh ! LOL ! jus take me as toking crap ba hahas conclusion : don tink bout de end ! LMAO ! cherish de moments we haf !
actually yesterday finish typing a post but its gone cuz my internet connection lost ba ! sux man ! felt darn pissed after tat den never come online liao zz ! dunno y my temper is jus getting worse ! gRr aargh !
even my mind is in a confused nw ! my vision is getting blurred ! i tink i lost my mature tinking somehow ! i don realli be able to differentiate wat is luv anymore ! whenever loneliness set in ! temptation jus overwhelmed me ! is this jus human nature or wat ! if someone was to jus give me sth more i tink i would jus give iN ! give me sth more and i may jus be urs =x i tink i may jus need u from nw on =/
ok so this song i tink quite nice ba ! at least nt so EMo like jay chou tat kind hahas ! but i tink listen long also will sian so i jus put in up a few days ba ! so many things jus stuck in my mind nw ! goota sort dem out but meanwhile off to study =/
Friday, July 13, 2007
hmm so todae went ta watch harry potter ! order of de phoneix ! i thought it will be like lot of actions ! but in fact nt realli so u can sae tat its de worst out of all de 5 ba ! i slept for like half hour of de show ? and nth much to see lo jus all story line ! nt those tat most ppl will expect ! and before u noe it , it ended already LOL ! so i sae 2/5 ?
i tink i couldnt control my temper as well as before anymore ! dunno is it cuz of stress of wat ! even my parents i'll jus flare at dem nowadays ! argh ! i jus hope i wont provoke anyone ba ! or don come near me LOL ! face quite a lot of downfalls and its realli hard to accept all of dem lightly ! yes and 2morrow we are having our rowing session again ! though we nid ta wake up real earli 2morrow but at least afternoon we can go home study ! ok and i will prove to u guys tat i will mug ok ! wat is running my mind is tat ! if we don care for ourselves , seriously NO ONE WILL ! its true ppl will jus get gud grade and u will jus be left behind ! no want will pity u or watever fcuk which i don care ! so ya mug for my future den =))
i will be made available if u want me to x)) wahahas
so off to sleep nw since its quite late le ! darn tired too ! *yawns*
Thursday, July 12, 2007
argh feel darn FUCKED UP NOW ! IM ONLI HERE TO VENT MY ANGER ! I FCUKING SCREW MY MYE LIKE SIAO ! HOW MANY MORE Us MUS I GET MAN ! KNN ! NO EFFORT PUT IN = FAILURE ALL COME BACK Us ! CHAO CHEEBYE !
maybe ur rite ! i shouldnt keep tinking of retaining but to do sth to help myself ! mugger ? impossible but i try my best and use up most of de time to study ! goona quaratine myself ! nt going out tat often liao ! no more pool chiong clubbing or ton ! no more this type of stuff anymore till promos is over ! i noe it may sound riduculous to some of u who been my frenz for long ! i noe ! but tink of it ! if i landed in jc and gt nth out of it ! im onli left with a o lvl cert and den i will be a complete failure man ! seriously if after 1 year den go poly i also sian liao ! like wat most ppl sae i believe in this ! MONEY is much impt when we grow older ! find a gf or wat im sure most of dem will see how rich u are ! this is life ya ! even u want date any gals or wat imagine u no $$ wtf ! later also no $$ for marriage man ! how pathetic is tat ! ok i cant imagine tat ! but i jus tink this is life ! something like db ya ! its nw or never ! nw i don pia in future im a gone case ! so onli apologises can replace me for neglecting u guys !
todae come sch also darn fcuking sian la ! never bring thermometer ! sucky gp paper ! no energy to tink for pw ! argh it jus sux ! and so some ppl jus feel like and jus guai lan me ! and its nt jus one person ! fine ! luckily its nt in de past ! or whoever u are ! i'll jus screw u man ! CCB
this is de first time i feel so sucky in life for this year man ! wtf more will i get man !
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
so i tink after todae gym training ! de team getting beta ya ! can see most of u changing le ! tats great ! BUT remember one thing guy team ! our fitness sux as in seriously ! i noe mine sux too but its like most of us are ! hw come we are like doing gals weight ! and seriously i cant like do much more anymore ! feel darn weak todae ! reason i dunno y no one to realli motivate me ? i dunno ! argh getting weaker ! im realli wanna get strong maybe asap ! chiong gym again ba ! don wanna slack jus cuz dere exam ! back to normal !
ok todae gt a team talk ! de worst fear i haf for de goals would be promoting to jc2 ! aww i realli haf no confidence in myself ! for me its impossible for me to put de same attitude in studies like db ! it jus don apply for me ! its hard or even impossible for me ! ok tats for de goals but other i tink its still achievable ! as everyone noe every training will be getting tougher so jus be prepared for it ba ! dere will be no time for any1to slack ! remember this we are a TEAM and we push it tgther ! pls get this clear ! jus get it ur best for everything ! like wat many said : NOT PREPARED ! QUIT LO !
and sometimes i realli feel we no need to be so serious all de time ? can haf time to joke rite ? if everyone gt their goals clear in their mind i tink everything will turn out to be fine ! like de team talk ya maybe we realli joke too much ? ya i agree but like being serious all de time doesnt realli help either too ? maybe my tinking jus different i dunno ! so nt going to sae much bout tat ! so tats all ba and my current results U U S sian ! so de last one will be like S to match it a pattern ? hahas probably i wont neglect studies anymore like during de 2nd term ? i tink hahas
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
ok lets jus be open about it ! ok so transparency ! ya our fitness sux ya ! stop trying to deny anyone ! as wat ikhtia ask who gt gud fitness no one ! ok so all of us noe it ! so wat nw ! IMPROVE LA ! from wat i see from some of u all its seriously jus plain talking NO ACTIONS ! so wat if u sae ok ok ! USELESS ya ! gals can do beta ! feel ashamed ?! don tell me u don ! ok i myself feel tat too in de past and it was humilating ! nw i also barly do de same weights or a little bit more den dem ! DON JUS SAE USE YOUR ACTIONS MAN ! KNN ! de more i sae its realli more FUCKED UP ! don let anyone of us lose hope for de team can !!
ok frank to sae ! ok terence maybe u a little bit buay song and u are guai lan by nature ! but im sure u will change for de beta and nt bear grudges tats gud ! u're de MAN ! lol i heard u going to do sth gud ya =)) ! for de others ! i seriously hope u all do sth bout it ! tink about wat others sae bout u ! and nt like being suspicious of wat motive dey haf ! if u haf no trust of any of us and be wary of us ! wat for u join de team la ! KNS ! one last chance and i tink no one can tolerate with u ! same with de others ! i noe im nt tat gud yet no one is but at least we are trying ! MAKE SOME EFFORT AND FUCKING WAKE UP !
wa jiat liao ! don wanna sae anything more ! i tink if in de past my fist will like just fly to him la ! but i jus hope i wont show tat ugly sight of mine ! i hope no one will force me too ! cuz i respect everyone in de team and dey will do all dey can for de team !
for derek : i read ur blog ! ok can see u are under a lot of stress ! jus trust us ur teammates ! im sure one day everyone will bloody wake up and u nid nt wry so much ! believe in all of us ! though de thrash talk may nt realli work i guess dere still sth gud out of it =)) so smiles and don so stress liao !
ok so blog is a place to post their rants and everything dey don like ! but pls be responsible for wat u post too ! so todae i gt back half of my geo paper finally broke my U chain but its still a E nt veri gud also could haf done beta ! wait for next part ba ! econ i tink will be beta i hope =/
ok enough said for all this ! i believe everyone will noe i sae bout todae thrash talk ! but de content i wont sae anymore ! i seriously dunno wat happen todae maybe my suggestion for a thrash talk was a wrong from de start ! i thought it would be able to solve differences and bring our team to greater heights ! but maybe i was wrong afterall ! so ya thrash talk ! it a place for serious thing nt any kiddy thing ! seriously we are guys rite and db ppl somemore ! so wat if ppl raise their voice or point at u ! i realli don give a dam and i tink its perfectly ok ! maybe de outside world i see with u guys is different but i feel its totally alright ! we are guys and nt some CC ok ! take it like a man la ! TRUE MAN DON BEAR GRUDGES FOR LONG K ! if u can reason things out u still be right ok ! i don mean it to turn it to a fight but if its like some meeting tats nt thrash talk for wat i see !
and seriously im pissed as some ppl seem to haf like nth to sae ! eh u are part of de team ! u sure u don haf anything to sae ! i don see de reason y ! cuz everything is said or u jus don wanna sae ! wat is this man ! EH THIS IS REALLI BAD OK ! DON TINK ITS NTH ! i realli see todae thrash talk as USELESS ! wat de point la ! everything said is like nth much except for a few ! wat happen to de others ! u sure u are part of de team ! and even if u are being shoot u still haf de right to defend for urself rite ! DO IT LIKE A MAN LA ! knn de more i tink i realli darn sian !
CMON we are guys ! guai lan la ! its ok de wat ! but at least guai lan also haf reason ! we are nt like 3 year old pri sch who need to be protected ok ! argh FCUK IT ! im sure ppl haf sth to sae bout me too ! maybe ok everytime after training i sae a lot blah shit bout who who who ! but i todae realli no mood to vent anything at all ! no response u are like toking to de wall ! de ppl speaking always de same ?! ppl always haf their own excuses ! i seriously tink its FUCK shit jus tat i don want to show it out !
but i can see some of u beginning to understand de importance of de team especially de exco ! tats gud ! issues nid to be raise up and nt keeping numb ! its no use de same ppl saying de same old things ! i wont sae who right or wrong ! BUT BEAR NO GRUDGES AFTER THIS ! HANDLE IT LIKE A MAN ! if anyone purposly create trouble after this talk i sure FCUK tat person up ! and someone jus haf to play de bad person ! i hope no one blame him ! its his job ! we are guys take it like a man ! argh i like keep repeating bout this maybe most ppl feel its too harsh ! maybe de outside world u all haf nt realli see it yet ! maybe for a start its scary but jus get use to it man ! if anyone haf any displeasure with me maybe cuz i tok too much or wat ! tell me seriously tell me ! ok if i haf my reason i will tell u ! with tat said ! nth much to say anymore !
Monday, July 9, 2007
ok so a lot of ppl support LIVE EARTH !! tats gud ! but my eyes aint gt any beta or maybe even worse ! jus went ta see de doc and gt 1 day of mc =)) LOL i didnt expect for tat ! so i dunno if i should go sch but dere THRASH TALK ! and i realli wanna go and maybe i go for tat onli ! but giving back geo paper ! argh ! see how 2morrow ba !
ok wonder wat will happen for thrash talk 2morrow ! and didnt even noe if its confirm yet cuz timing and venue haf nt been stated ! lets jus see how ! pw getting beta i hope ! hope to get at least a C ba ! or even beta =))
and tat stupid jean gt like 5 days mc jus cuz she extract a tooth ! wtf LOL ! swollen face ! hahas ! i sitll dunno wanna go sch mah ! tink of studies i seriously sian ! i like goona force myself to do all tat ! and i seriously don want it to happen this way ! argh ! can i like love studying which is like impossible and everytime i wanna study sth jus happen ! gRr ! FUCK IT MAN ! cmon i finally mug my math and physics ! dey failed terribly ! aww =/
nth much to sae ! SIAN when talking bout studies though zj sae tat we mus take studying like db but i find it hard to put dem de same ! de feeling is jus different ! i gt no PASSION OR COMMITMENT for studies at all ! and i don realli haf much ppl to ans to except myself !
Saturday, July 7, 2007
SUPPORT LIVE EARTH !! wohoo ! LIVE EARTH is darn cool la ! reach out to so many places ! wonderful event man ! and dere many advertisement on how to reduce our harm to de EARTH and as a result global warming ! we can jus do our part to save our EARTH ! hahas
ok now for de concert ! OMG quite a lot of singers for this event man ! start i saw rihanna and shakira ! rihanna sing darn well for unfaithful ! and de monst memorable one SHAKIRA ! she can realli shake like mad man ! and when she sang hips don lie she nearly like wanna take off her clothes ! * nose bleeding * DARN HOT MAN SHAKIRA ! she can jus make guys horny ! wahahas ! den jus now when i woke up i saw kelly clarkson ! she sang since you be gone nice also ! FINALLY LINKIN PARK !!! SOMEONE I BELONG , NUMB , CRAWLING,IN THE END , BREAKING THE HABIT and de latest WHAT I VE DONE LAST SONG FAINT !! tat song is fukcing nice and de crowd fukcing HIGH LA wohoo ! many more la ! WOHOO DARN COOL !! CHESTER DE LEAD VOCALIST DARN FUCKING COOL LA de way he sway with his mike de way he SCREAM and MIKE good rap and follow-up ! dey simply ROX TA DE CORE !! live earth is realli a wonderful event ! like for our pw we also wish tat sth like this will happen and it realli could be done =)) REMEMBER SAVE DE EARTH ! STOP GLOBAL WARMING ! lets do our part ! de advertisements are cool ! ANSWER DE CALL ! HAHAS
but so sad for me i have a darn bad sore eye nw ! im sure its nt cuz of shakira as i haf it before tat ! and nw it is worse ! Zz pain man ! argh ! i jus hope my eyes could be feel soon ! feel so terrible =/ ok so 2morrow going back to do my pw again ! pia arh ! and yesterday some 2 ppl don want us go find dem gRr ! in de end we walk around aimlessly hahas but actually is cuz of 1 person who tink tat she is too ugly to meet any guys species tat day ! LOL nvm i play pool after tat and went my frenz house watch live earth ! so its stil ok la ! and de live earth is still on guys go watch it ! 24hr till todae 7pm ! =))
todae whole body aching man when i woke up ! old liao ZZ ! but jus gotta train harder ba ! aniwae todae realli de second U came in ! 2 U add = W ! zz wa well done man ! SUX ! ok nw i jus gotta mug mug mug and do well for promos or im realli dead ! argh ! who can teach me any subject ! ZZ
ok yesterday i was like fucking pissed but todae mood aint any beta too ! CMON give me back my econ paper ! maybe tats de onli paper i haf hope left ! if tat one fail too i tink i will faint on de spot ! DROP DEAD immediately ! no db for this week nt anymore ! so this week will be studying ! wish me lucks in studying ! tats all bye !
Wednesday, July 4, 2007
todae is de day i going gyming again after like 1 month ! aww todae is totally a bad day ! my first U paper came in and im sure more will come ! math sure also U de so at least 2 le ba ! jus hope de remaining will pass lo =/
ok gyming ! i tink im getting weaker ! and i don want this to happen ! GOONA GYM MORE ! argh ! maybe i will jus take protein powder but tat is de last resort la ! so wat nw ! results bad nt realli gud in db too ! how am i going to excel in anything la ! gRr ! and todae de push ups de exco ask us to do ! i seriously haf difficulty completeing it ! and i was like wtf ! wat is happening ! and i realli struggle from de start to de end ! ok sth need to be done for both my studies and db ! i feel so darn it useless nw !
2morrow my math paper coming and another U ! realli darn sian man ! ok forget bout it since its expected ! SOMEONE HELP ME PLS AND GET ME OUT OF THIS MISERY ! SOME KIND SOUL PLS ! ZZ i feel so tired ! tired of everything around ! PLS don piss me at this moment nw ! i realli don wanna sae anything ! even my close frenz seriously don piss me off this few days ! jus feel darn pek chek ! its time to let me clear my thought s ! ya ur right ! guys are jus freaking bastards ! den don care luh ! IGNORANCE IS BLISS ! maybe im back to de guai lan person i used to be ! so jus don care lo !
Monday, July 2, 2007
life so darn it boring without db ! aww ! ok so todae went ta sch in de morning for pw ! wish i can get a B for pw ba hahas =D ! on my way home i saw lot of db ppl ! wahahas ! saw solo zhejun dey all at de seats where db ppl gather ! saw zh and alex on de stairs ! saw wen lin dey all and dey jus been to de gym ! aww i wanna go todae also de but 2morrow haf gym training so beta nt ba ! last but nt lest i saw cherlyn black dey all ! hahas i simply "lub" u guys ! wohoo !
yesterday been chatting online with many ppl and suddenly like listening to old english songs again ! hahas ! i was like keep tinking of a band which i cant remember and was like so fed up ! LOL jean sure thought i siao ! OK DEN I FINALLY REMEMBER ! BUSTED ! yey listen to their songs its nice ! i wanted to put some beta songs from dem but cant find ! sian ! and ya simple plan mcfly songs all veri nice ya ! oh ya and when i was like putting de songs my com suddenly hang la ! den i came back jean and bao was gone ! hahas ! i noe jean luv toking ta mi ! wahahas ! i was pretty lame too and played games with my frenz on messenger LOL we play minesweeper and some pool stuff ! actually its quite fun leh ! who want can find me play ! hahs
so guess i will be keep changing songs for this period of time ba ! LOL and cya guys in gym 2morrow ! hope de seniors come also ba ! later i should be going out to play pool with my frenz ba ! so byebye ! *as requested i haf put it into paragraphs hahas ! someone complain its hard ta read LOL ! *
Sunday, July 1, 2007
ok one last thing to sae to NYJC DB guys team 2oo7 ! ok so we can see we are a TEAM nt an individual ! i guess u all should haf known this after such a long time ! now its time for us to do sth to help those who are nt dere yet ! wat i feel nw is ! no one is taking de lead ! we are like stuck in this position forever and dere seem ta be nth done to improve de situation ! look at de gals team ! dey are doing much better den us ! no matter wat dey do dey are a TEAM and dey do it as a TEAM ! dey put aside all differences and work hard tgther ! our guys team wat are we ! de onli time i see all of us realli tgther is during NATIONALS ! i was tinking yes this is it we are getting close ta improve beta den our seniors ! but wat i see during db fest was totally de opposite ! GUYS WAT IS THIS ! i realli dunno ! encourage each other on de way ! i nid encouragements from u guys too nt jus one way round ! i noe im toking too much ; much den wat i should sae and wat i sae maybe put in a blunt manner and veri direct ! but i seriously wish tat de guys team can settle down and realli concentrate on our trainings in future ! many seniors told me , u can still take de lead and help to improve de team as u are part of de team ! ok wat i sae hope wont affect anything la ! wat i feel is tat ! im no exco member or someone realli darn fit for someone to respect ! den watever i sae will be like forgotten de next moment den wats de point ! exco i realli urge u all to do sth fast before de real training start ! de guys team realli nid ta settle down fast ! hope u all understand ! ok im toking too much i noe i shouldnt but i realli wish de best for de team ! wat make a STRONG TEAM : RESPECTING EACH OTHER AND PUSHING TGTHER AS A TEAM ! NO ONE IS TO BE LEFT OUT ! wat can make our training efficient and to its fullest : EVERY INDIVIDUAL ROWER ALMOST ON PAR WITH EACH OTHER ! tat wats we should aim for ! hope u guys noe wat to do ! i noe im nt veri gud too but im realli trying to improve and do wat i can for de team and be on par with de others ! i believe all of us haf de abilities to do so ! DON DROP DE MORALE AT ANY POINT OF TIME ! LETS WORK TOWARDS OUR GOAL AS A TEAM ! DE FUN TIMES ARE OVER ! NW IS SERIOUS ! HOLD ON TO THIS : EITHER WE WIN IT OR WE BREAK IT ! I GUESS ALL OF U ALSO WANNA WIN SO LETS WORK DOUBLY HARD !
ok 2 day never come le ! cuz no time at all no time ta even sleep ok ! i onli gt 1 thing to sae now im freaking tired so i going to keep this post as short and sae all i want to and go to sleep ! ok firstly u all noe i will comment on de day DB fest on sat ! before tat i realli nid ta apologise to de whole team ! ok before tat day on fri i came home darn late bout 3 plus in de morning den never sleep well or nt enough sleep ba ! realli veri sry ! but as i sae in de previous post i realli cant neglect my frenz but come to tink of it now ! i realli nid ta make a decision and i tink it will be NYDB ! i dunno y la but i onli noe i cannot lose my position in de team tats all and to train hard ! i noe lot of things had to be sacrifice but i try to as much as i can ! and ty to my frenz who drive me home la ! i noe maybe i should nt like ask u drive me home from dhoby den u all go out again ! but seriously ty and understand la ! ok so due to nt enough sleep ! de set i row tat day seriously SUX ! 1st time i realli slip my paddle and it nearly fell off my hand ! how close can tat be ! i tried to keep my composure but i realli cant focus on tat day maybe no energy i dunno ? i was giving my best but more of like became nt concentrating and jus ziam hard on de water rowing ! ok i noe on my part i sux la ! but i tried to call hard 1o tat day and found i gt no voice ! sry ikhtia let u down ! i noe i should haf motivate de boat up but tat day i seriously cant ! ok 1st thing ! when ah hee sae de starting line up everyone was going ok we are de underdogs we are de lousier rower ! dey are jus letting us row for de sake of rowing and we lose for sure ! tat wats i hear wat a lot of u seriously i myself noe tat we are de weaker ones but tat doesnt mean we cant win ok ! i tried to smotivate u guys back but it was realli hard ! even zh elvis felt demoralise ! wat to be done ! ok den later elvis spoke and said tat he been tinking whole day but we shouldnt be tinking bout whether we are de weakers ones but to row our best ! ok i thought tat help but it prove otherwise ! air rowing ! conducted by ikhtia and yi yang ! ikhtia give command response low ! or maybe whole of back pack nt responding ? i felt quite piss seriously ! den ppl call hard 1o long 1o or up ! nt much response ! moral SUPER low ! no one seem to haf hope of even winning at all ! all seem to giving up ! i saw seniors shaking their head and yi yang comment tat from de 4th pair onwards all look lethargic including me ! ok before going down to boat ikhtia ask me try to call and motivate de team if i can ! after wat he said im willingly to try my best ! in de boat warm up row ; power 1o still nt bad ! try starts 1o 1o ok ! but seriously it was average compared to those times we can do real gud ones ! no aggressiveness no desire to win ! guys where de fuck are all hunger ! im proud of u guys in de nationals coming in so close with de seniors but wat nw ! DON LET THIS BE AN ON OFF THING ! IT SHOULD BE IN OUR MIND ALL DE TIME ! DE HUNGER AND DESIRE TO WIN AND BEAT OTHERS ! ok in de boat i tried to call for hard 1o response low and we were lagging ! seriously i felt like giving up at a point after i slip but i told myself this is nt going to be it ! i pick myself back and row hard again ! calling for up 1o% by yiyang i realli give it my all ! but i realli don feel de whole boat surging ! izzit cuz everyone nt putting in their best ! SERIOUSLY TINK BOUT IT ! i noe i haf myy wrong in tat race set but im reflecting ! ARE ALL OF U DOING DE SAME ! when i came up i felt like SHIT TOTALLY SHIT ! never feel so bad before ! i was like wtf ! i noe bout of it was my fault but de whole boat also like nt pushing and CMON debrief still gt ppl can laugh talk ! WTF WAS TAT ! CMON WE LOST AND NT EVEN FEELING SAD OR BAD ! still can laugh ! WA WELL DONE MAN ! FUCK IT LA ! if next time this was going to happen ! no matter how close i am to u ! i sure go up to ur face and gan u sia ! after tat felt more piss ! kept tinking ! shook my head when i walk past BLACK ! GUYS SERIOUSLY WTF WAS TAT ! and i feel tat i can onli sae it here ! but wat i can sae is ! i cant sae all this out in front of de team ! even de exco are like nt so truthful and wat if i sae this ! everyone will hate me like FUCK ? so i realli dunno watta do ! exco i seriously hope u all haf plan sth tat will help de team ! nt tat u all are doing bad or wat but nth much is done ! establishing ur power and position in de team is one thing ! helping de team up as one i tink is de most impt ! ALL OF US SERIOUSLY NEED TO TINK BOUT IT ! WHETHER WE BELONG TO DE TEAM ! WHETHER WE DESERVE TO WEAR DE BAILONG SHIRT ON DE RACE DAY ! maybe wat i sae is realli harsh ! but i realli hope u guys can tink bout it ! im clear of wat i want nw ! im willingly to sacrifice maybe nt straight but slowly ! no use having pt every morning if our team haf prob itself and teammate nt even sure whether dey belong to de team or willingly to push for de team ! tink bout it guys ! i tink i said too much ! and i noe i haf nt much power in de team also ! so jus tink bout it !
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